It’s fine.<\/p>\n
Isn’t it?<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
It’s all fine.<\/p>\n
My only problem is,<\/p>\n
that I have a problem.<\/p>\n
That’s my motto, my credo.<\/p>\n
I would dishonest to myself if I didn’t say,<\/p>\n
It always persisted in my the back of my mind.<\/p>\n
And with it.<\/p>\n
Is the thought of what,<\/p>\n
my real problem is. It,<\/p>\n
is that the problem is being alive.<\/p>\n
It’s hard, it’s unfair.<\/p>\n
So when I think about my ailments<\/p>\n
and completely irrational neurosis,<\/p>\n
I have to wonder if I am being dishonest,<\/p>\n
to myself,<\/p>\n
by letting this problem persist.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
The obvious result is now everything<\/p>\n
is just kind of waiting out this problem on its own.<\/p>\n
Like most things I am not actively trying to solve,<\/p>\n
anything that not some abstract nonsense.<\/p>\n
Like any good strategist I wait for things to come to me.<\/p>\n
Death will come to me.<\/p>\n
And like the reworking of anything this does not change,<\/p>\n
Even as my awareness of it becomes ever more clear.<\/p>\n
So then it must be taken as, organization and energy<\/p>\n
of the external system has not changed, then,<\/p>\n
something internally must have reconfigured.<\/p>\n
I think, that thing, perhaps the reason for this all,<\/p>\n
is any sense of urgency.<\/p>\n
I have no great plan to fight greatly against the tide.<\/p>\n
At most I have a desire to minimize my suffering,<\/p>\n
while I wait for death to creep up.<\/p>\n
But there is kind of a calmness is just realizing<\/p>\n
that the only problem I have, is I have a problem.<\/p>\n
That is simply waiting to resolve itself.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
It’s fine. Isn’t it? It’s all fine. My only problem is, that I have a problem. That’s my motto, my credo. I would dishonest to myself if I didn’t say, It always persisted in my the back of my mind. And with it. Is the thought of what, my real problem is. It, is […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3,10,2],"tags":[11,106,13,69,44,70,111,108],"class_list":["post-93","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-existence","category-introspection","category-self","tag-disinterest","tag-existence","tag-identity","tag-illness","tag-lucid","tag-neurosis","tag-nihilism","tag-rambling"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/93","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=93"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/93\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":94,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/93\/revisions\/94"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=93"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=93"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=93"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}