{"id":59,"date":"2014-07-24T19:49:27","date_gmt":"2014-07-24T19:49:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/?p=59"},"modified":"2017-12-09T15:19:29","modified_gmt":"2017-12-09T15:19:29","slug":"old-stream-of-conscious-note-1","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/?p=59","title":{"rendered":"Old Stream of Conscious Note 1"},"content":{"rendered":"<p class=\"Standard\">#1<\/p>\n<p class=\"Standard\">I am warm with fear I sweat a viscous unnameable thing that might closely identify as death.\u00a0 My jaw painfully locks, which is a slight reprieve from its constant nervous chattering.\u00a0 The heat from my terrorized brain melts solid ice at a distance. I have been here too long.\u00a0 The hot fearful beast longs for the climate of cool clay to lay his weary body into.<br \/>\nBut there are unknown things undone. So I will continue to plod this scorched earth ever fearful of the next turn.<\/p>\n<p class=\"Standard\">#2<\/p>\n<p class=\"Standard\">Then suddenly to my knowledge mortality made me realize that even through my inexplicable anxiety no human interaction really amounts to anything unless I will it to.<\/p>\n<p class=\"Standard\">\n<p class=\"Standard\">#3<\/p>\n<p class=\"Standard\">My meaningless life. Like a dim candle caught inside a turned over glass. Desperately trying to make the most of the thinning air.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>#1 I am warm with fear I sweat a viscous unnameable thing that might closely identify as death.\u00a0 My jaw painfully locks, which is a slight reprieve from its constant nervous chattering.\u00a0 The heat from my terrorized brain melts solid ice at a distance. I have been here too long.\u00a0 The hot fearful beast longs [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3,10,2],"tags":[20,43,44,108],"class_list":["post-59","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-existence","category-introspection","category-self","tag-alcohol","tag-dream","tag-lucid","tag-rambling"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/59","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=59"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/59\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":63,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/59\/revisions\/63"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=59"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=59"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/deconstructiondevelopments.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=59"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}