The Worry Of Buying In Wholesale
At what point should one worry that one has bought wholesale into their self created illusions. That some attempt conscious rebellion has become a dogma that is worn only for itself and purely out of familiarity. Something akin to a soldier fighting for a cause for many years. Only to one day lift their head […]
Holiday Gauntlet
Wrote this a bit ago, but never really got around to posting it. So why not now that it’s in the middle? [Halloween] [Thanksgiving] [Christmas] [New Years] While I do enjoy time that I am not forced to put my interests aside and produce some kind of “practical work”, during this time of the year […]
Is There A Problem
It’s fine. Isn’t it? It’s all fine. My only problem is, that I have a problem. That’s my motto, my credo. I would dishonest to myself if I didn’t say, It always persisted in my the back of my mind. And with it. Is the thought of what, my real problem is. It, is […]
Old Stream of Conscious Note 1
#1 I am warm with fear I sweat a viscous unnameable thing that might closely identify as death. My jaw painfully locks, which is a slight reprieve from its constant nervous chattering. The heat from my terrorized brain melts solid ice at a distance. I have been here too long. The hot fearful beast longs […]
Selected (Coherent…ish) Notes from California July 17- 21 2014
What is this this existential anxiety that I appear to be experiencing at the mere prospect of going to a fundamentally unfamiliar space. Perhaps it stems from my desire to always return to the point of my origin. Which is not some fanciful Mecca based on my birth. Rather a place that I have marked […]