Horrible
Sometimes it is more useful to turn the hyperbolic language in on oneself. Everyone is horrible, and when one admits to themselves that they are horrible life becomes more honest, and adaptation becomes a much easier process. There seems to be this notion to many people that they are somehow intrinsically good or right, but […]
Place Between Human and Reality
Its not quite an edge. Something defined by the walls On either side. One wall emanates a warm soulful glow The other wall, a a harsh sterile surface. This place in between is not Characteristic of either of it boundaries. In a way it is easier to be recognized as dissonance. This space has a […]
Unraveling
Pride, responsibility, sympathy. These are things that I’m not particularly interested in. What is it to choose to avoid problems rather than confront them? What is it to change your system of values when the current system is a constant uphill battle? The universe continues to unravel at a steady pace regardless of what the […]
a solipsists regret
I saw you waiting for the bus one day. I wished to talk to you but the crowd, the stops and starts it did not happen I’m dying you know really dying actually I know you’ll never read this. i’m a solipsist after all when it’s over for me it’s over
Is There A Problem
It’s fine. Isn’t it? It’s all fine. My only problem is, that I have a problem. That’s my motto, my credo. I would dishonest to myself if I didn’t say, It always persisted in my the back of my mind. And with it. Is the thought of what, my real problem is. It, is […]
Old Stream of Conscious Note 1
#1 I am warm with fear I sweat a viscous unnameable thing that might closely identify as death. My jaw painfully locks, which is a slight reprieve from its constant nervous chattering. The heat from my terrorized brain melts solid ice at a distance. I have been here too long. The hot fearful beast longs […]
Selected (Coherent…ish) Notes from California July 17- 21 2014
What is this this existential anxiety that I appear to be experiencing at the mere prospect of going to a fundamentally unfamiliar space. Perhaps it stems from my desire to always return to the point of my origin. Which is not some fanciful Mecca based on my birth. Rather a place that I have marked […]
Nihilism Is For Lazy People
In so many ways nihilism makes life so much more simple to navigate. If nothing else than that the burdens of culture and duty appear absurd, preferably ignored. Though in that respect there is also difficulty due to the assumption of others that one must prescribe to and intend to honor their particular social pact. […]
Irresponsible, and always Ready to Party
It is not that the people I envision as those normal and reasonable cannot comprehend or deal with my particular lifestyle and outlook, but rather have come to a point in their lives where the notion of such a lifestyle does not seem maintainable. So I must continue not only for my own selfishness but also so I do […]
Lets Get This Started
If I had suggest to someone how to gain insight into things. I would have to say: 1. Learn what it means to hate yourself without bounds 2. Learn to hate everyone else just as equally.