Category Archives: Existence

Horrible

Sometimes it is more useful to turn the hyperbolic language in on oneself. Everyone is horrible, and when one admits to themselves that they are horrible life becomes more honest, and adaptation becomes a much easier process. There seems to … Continue reading

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Place Between Human and Reality

Its not quite an edge. Something defined by the walls On either side. One wall emanates a warm soulful glow The other wall, a a harsh sterile surface. This place in between is not Characteristic of either of it boundaries. … Continue reading

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Unraveling

Pride, responsibility, sympathy.  These are things that I’m not particularly interested in. What is it to choose to avoid problems rather than confront them?  What is it to change your system of values when the current system is a constant … Continue reading

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a solipsists regret

I saw you waiting for the bus one day. I wished to talk to you but the crowd, the stops and starts it did not happen I’m dying you know really dying actually I know you’ll never read this. i’m … Continue reading

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Is There A Problem

It’s fine. Isn’t it?   It’s all fine. My only problem is, that I have a problem. That’s my motto, my credo. I would dishonest to myself if I didn’t say, It always persisted in my the back of my … Continue reading

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Old Stream of Conscious Note 1

#1 I am warm with fear I sweat a viscous unnameable thing that might closely identify as death.  My jaw painfully locks, which is a slight reprieve from its constant nervous chattering.  The heat from my terrorized brain melts solid … Continue reading

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Selected (Coherent…ish) Notes from California July 17- 21 2014

What is this this existential anxiety that I appear to be experiencing at the mere prospect of going to a fundamentally unfamiliar space. Perhaps it stems from my desire to always return to the point of my origin. Which is … Continue reading

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Nihilism Is For Lazy People

In so many ways nihilism makes life so much more simple to navigate. If nothing else than that the burdens of culture and duty appear absurd, preferably ignored. Though in that respect there is also difficulty due to the assumption … Continue reading

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Irresponsible, and always Ready to Party

It is not that the people I envision as those normal and reasonable cannot comprehend or deal with my particular lifestyle and outlook, but rather have come to a point in their lives where the notion of such a lifestyle does not … Continue reading

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Lets Get This Started

If I had suggest to someone how to gain insight into things.  I would have to say: 1. Learn what it means to hate yourself without bounds 2. Learn to hate everyone else just as equally.

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