Category Archives: Introspection

Inner Calm Can’t

There is a place where I can go and nothing follows me. Most of the time this place is a horrid quagmire of conflict and doubt. Hilariously enough brought on by my inability to react to those that, ultimately cannot … Continue reading

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Horrible

Sometimes it is more useful to turn the hyperbolic language in on oneself. Everyone is horrible, and when one admits to themselves that they are horrible life becomes more honest, and adaptation becomes a much easier process. There seems to … Continue reading

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The Worry Of Buying In Wholesale

At what point should one worry that one has bought wholesale into their self created illusions. That some attempt conscious rebellion has become a dogma that is worn only for itself and purely out of familiarity. Something akin to a … Continue reading

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Unraveling

Pride, responsibility, sympathy.  These are things that I’m not particularly interested in. What is it to choose to avoid problems rather than confront them?  What is it to change your system of values when the current system is a constant … Continue reading

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Is There A Problem

It’s fine. Isn’t it?   It’s all fine. My only problem is, that I have a problem. That’s my motto, my credo. I would dishonest to myself if I didn’t say, It always persisted in my the back of my … Continue reading

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Old Stream of Conscious Note 1

#1 I am warm with fear I sweat a viscous unnameable thing that might closely identify as death.  My jaw painfully locks, which is a slight reprieve from its constant nervous chattering.  The heat from my terrorized brain melts solid … Continue reading

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Selected (Coherent…ish) Notes from California July 17- 21 2014

What is this this existential anxiety that I appear to be experiencing at the mere prospect of going to a fundamentally unfamiliar space. Perhaps it stems from my desire to always return to the point of my origin. Which is … Continue reading

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In Relation to the world cup

Why I am not into sports. Entertainment serves many purpose for conscious beings. Especially self aware ones.  One of the purposes can be a form of escape.  It allows one to, in a way, remove themselves from the everyday misery … Continue reading

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